its my honour to know you.

MOVED to v-heartznine.blogspot.com (:  

" I didnt knew how to forget, thats why this is not true love . so i shan't hold on to this too long (: "

what if i have not much time left ...

Im bored , seriously fucking bored . I cant sleep even though im tired. Its just the beginning of the holiday , how am i going to endure this boredness for 2 fucking months ?! -.- LOL . well , hope theres more work for me . Considering one job , at tiongbahru . should i or should i not ? haaaaiz its hard to make a decision. Currently chatting with Benjamine.  Hmmmphhh , should i meet him tmrw to pei him ball ? sianz lahhh . mummy going msia , sister going schl . so im left alone in the house like again -.-  walauu i v fickle minded lehh . cant decide my things . awww someone jio me out lehh . i cant imagine staying at home the whole day tmrw ):  zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz   ohyahh , im so going to skip volleyball trainings during this holidays! Since i didnt get the form plus why should i go ? LOLOL !!

I've made up my mind. I've decided everything i wanna do.

I GUESS IM NOT BLOGGING HERE ANYMORE . SO BYE . 

Should i let go? like seriously . i have no answer to this .. After realising and knowing so much thing that you didnt want me to know,  im really giving up . I didnt knew this was so difficult . oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck . fucktard . bastard . nabei . chaochibai . kaninabu . your false hopes made me ... arghhh . what if i have not much time left.? will you come back and fulfil my last wish? tskkkkkk ~ sighs*


why do other people can still be friends when they broke up while we cant. yet we have to be strangers.  we wont be contacting though you said we will . It takes alot of courage to say goodbye, but im really going to bid goodbye to you here. Goodbyes (:  Goodluck in all you do. make me proud one day as you promised. thats all i hope for (:  i really want this day to come soon .  because thats the day when im going to really let you go (:   I hope you're reading this now .. because i want you to know im waiting for you to make me proud of you . 

finally , goodbye to you ...

It's amazing how two strangers can become lovers & how two lovers can become strangers.

I will never forget how we became friends , lovers and then back to strangers .

out with ryeongkuu .

Jp>Je Library>IMM>Jp>FrontierLibrary>homesweethome at 7plus.

" When everything goes wrong, when you think you are the most unhappy person in the world. Smile. Teaches all that beautiful smile you have and show them that whatever happens, struggling to remain happy. Because a smile is the best weapon against sadness, because smiling is easier to endure the pain. Because your smile will show you the way to happiness. "

Dear, must stay strong ok ! We shall jiayou together ! It just takes time , gambateh ! ^^

11days... )':

Pictures yesterday .. 

bbye.

Talk to me , please .

1e5'09 & 2e6'10 <3

Its the last day of school today , awww sad . So we cleaned up the classroom , stacking up all the chairs & tables .. Then discussed about the class outing . and sadly , i dont think im going . Because im working with enbei )):  Its okay , going with besties one fine day if we could make it. After schl went seveneleven bought two small kewt tubs of icecream and shared ^^ chitchat for awhile then falysha went home . while me enbei nad dontk where to slack , so decided we went back to schl .

Back to schl , we found books people put there . so we look through and find our next year's subjects book . found some , so brought home . Then canteen to slack , chitchat and blast music (:  talk alot with friends. gosh , cant believe its the last day of our 2nd year . we're parting , we may or may not go to the same class next year . but i really hope our friendship will last (:   then saw uncle kar , helped him wash the canteen :P  me & enbei enjoy putting the 'soap' hehe !!  slacked til 6plus, walked home . okay , i dropped my books afew times because its fucking fucking fucking heavy LOL . Reached home ard almost 7 . 

I swear im going to fucking miss 1e5'09 & 2e6'10  T.T  We're parting , and going to different classes next year . I enjoyed the days together learning & studying in the class . Though our class can really be extremely noisy at times , and teachers always complain . but i still luv our class alot ((:  its an honour to be with you all as my classmates for 2years . I will never forget our class <3



Class outing to eastcoastpark on 11nov, but i dont think im able to make it . aww sad !! but will try my best to go probably ..  Im working with enbei on the 8th 10th 11th 13th nov . 4days and i could earn $100 ++ !! LOL $.$  hope the aunty let us work for more then shiok lo ! heh . Gambateh ! Must work hard ^^

It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

This morning had terrible cramp T.T  intended to go schl late , but for the sake of something i went as usual . Ish for colour awards during the first period , then saw mr leslie tan he ask me enbei falysha nadhirah to help him hold the playcards for sec4s. okay , so we hold . then they can leave , while i had to stay back help him -.- i say i dont want he say he want to test my braveness . walauuuuu ! then mrs yue keep talk to me :x  haha . finish , went back to class . talktalk , recess .. Dear tried to spam me, but cant :P  Next was D&T , workshop mr johnny go through paper then show videos blabla . then i fell asleep so soundly dreaming somemore. suddenly he woke me up say go canteen for activity .

Canteen , had an activity . the stack up cups de .. So we played , its freaking fun . keep play with friends (:  then coach come challenge us ~  And he taught us doubles ! He use right hand , i use left hand only (:  Then me & falysha tried together , kinda slower but we enjoyed . ^^  Then went to challenge against dont know who for the 4person relay 3-6-3 .  our class was enghong falysha me stanley . we won first , then challenged against 2/8 then we lost .. -.- The activity ended at 1.10 , staff room to help carry the report books ! Yeay , finally got back our report books . And i got the subjects i wanted , but im feeling unhappy . i dont know why. ):   after schl went seven eleven makan with enbei , then walk home w her and nad .



Oh you did a great job for ignoring me .. strangers we'll be . (:




Ryeongkuu , thanks for the comfort ! hehe . you too okay ^^  GAMBATEHH ! FIGHTING ! ^^

Dont say we could try , never ever .

Had workshop today ! Our coach was KhimRong . " Something wrong something wrong ~ " LOL ! haha . Bascially the workshop was about knowing our personalities . haha I was more of  " I " personality , and also S and C . somehow same as my friends (:  overall the workshop , laughed a whole lot because the coach kept telling jokes i like ^^ seriously shes super hyper lo ! Workshop ended at 1230 . then science lesson , mrs nasser want go through paper -.-  " three lines ! "  haha nad i know you love this :P  After school helped ms lim to sort report books . Jp next ! Settled lunch at macdonalds , heh . and idk why got two person lend pen from me -.- Walked around got our stuffs .. finally decided to go home at ard 5plus . I send falysha and enbei home ^^ I tried to INFLUENCE nad to walk home with us but she insist her way . ite she influenced me ._. anyway,  I realised seriously im so kind ^^ cheyyy lol ! i walked the longest distance one lo . Nevermind , kill fats !

Lastly, 

RYEONGKUU , i love you so the very very very super duper uber much to the very max ok !! hehe <3

我是真心爱你的！我也知道你也非常爱我的(;  Dont deny hor .

k lah enough of my crapps . Sayonarahh ~ ^^

I still feel hurt when i heard your name /.

Promotion day today so theres no school . woke up at ard 11 , prepared then pioneermall to meet enbei . shes always late :x   tsk !! ite forget this forget that , and forget to bring money ! So i sponsor her for today ^^ LOL fake , of course she HAS to return me. Giant and bought snacks , macdonalds to pack our lunch back home . Back to my hse , watched doreamon :P then computer and stuffs .. Enbei left at 5+ , went to meet ryeongkuu next . headed to jurongpoint . Printphotos>Frontier>Jp>home at 7+ .



fine. if its thats the case . i really have to more comments to say. then i guess lets just stay like this forever and ever and ever and ever ...... ?  or should i change . ohhh shucks . -'-




8thOctober2010 ; ahmishu ):   you promised me you would be there .. where are you ? 

I still cant get over you.

i miss you )':

Im falling in love with you all over again .

Lastly my kewt lover ^^ 

TampinessMall today with daddy and sister to meet godma . got sister's iphone4 and mama house . had lunch , rested then trained back to jp . meet mummy then bused to church . attended evening mass , ended @ 7. home straight . 

I’ll back off so you can live better .

School today just go through papers & slack .

After school , home straight then prepared .

had lunch mummy made for me and meet ryeongkuu . 

Headed to jurongpoint , got my bubbletea that i've been craving ! :P

then frontier ^^  returned and borrowed books .

collected my reserved book too ! yeay , i can read alr .

back to jp walk around .. Popular, bought stuffs and back home .

Ohyah , forget to mention that im so fucking stupid today .

After we left popular , i couldnt find my phone. so i panicked like hell .

still say today daddy coming home if lost jiu die liao .

ite, after i digged everything out of my bag then realised its inside.

hehe i made ryeongkuu panicked for me too :P mwhahahaha .

Next , went to ryeongkuu's house to get her stuff , 

afterwards came to my house to do something special (: 

seriously i hate my results ttc ! maths got 1 more marks , so as nadhirah ! but wonder did mr lim add for us lo

 ._.

I know,  You will forget me

I know, I will really hate you then 

Even though you know everything ..

Why are you leaving?

Why are you tossing me away?

If you were going to be like this

Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?

That day when we first met , I still remember it !

The promise you made to me

That you will only care for me

That you will only protect me

That you will only love me

I believed your lies, I believed it ..

Do i really have to say goodbye ?

The forgotten promises you made are always remembered .

I don’t want to ever look back ,
                                       I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that .. 

why do i have to meet you , when i didnt want to .  stop appearing in front of me , because i do not know how to greet you , and you dont smile back looking at me .  I need to fight this off , no matter how hard i try to tell myself , its so hard because the thoughts of you kept roaming in my mind . 

oh fuck fuck fuck fuck nbccb  -'-

I dont miss him, I miss who i thought he were.

Woooo , today was a long & tiring day . and it sucks seriously .

First of all , went to republic poly this morning for GPS shootout . assembled at generaloffice @ 0715 , departed at 0720 . Reached there , went to the agora hall (?!) then got our goodie bag & settled down in our teams. waited for the other teams to come. so sat down and talktalk. Then had breakfast ^^ ate quite many :x  after breakfaster , was dont know what speech blabla . went to explore RP afterwards. Then was briefing for the game. so we planned everything nicely (:   Lunch next , goshh yummy ! ^^ hehe. Game starts at 1plusplus . our team checked out at 1349 after we got our GPS and nerf gun . hehe falysha shoot thoughout the whole game while i read the gps . ok , i swear RP is really big . we ran rounds and rounds LOL . 8stations ^^ we went to all quite fast . but unfortunately , we didnt win anything T.T  theres only top 8 prizes . then had tea break .

reached back to schl at 5plus. Went to staff room and called teachers. so falysha & nad 's malay teacher & miss lim came out with our papers . okay , chinese was soso lahhh . hmmm , know all of the subjects marks. well , its really disappointing lah deyyy . arghhhhh.

overall , today went to school with our bag empty . came home bag full plus heavy . lolz . and i had fun today maybe (:   even though it was disappointed that we didnt win anything .


buahhbye (:

I could be nothing but a memory to you.

Just came back , ahhhh my legs are sour . lol .

basically , this morning wokeup prepared , train to jp bti to meet enbei ^^  while waiting for her, saw you w her. took bus 198 , and meet nadhirah on the bus heh . So chitchatted on the journey there , listen to songs & watched doreamon :x  nadhirah was asking where should we alight , and we missed the stop ! i panicked like hell . but realised theres another busstop near too. so alighted and walked to science centre (: 

Bought our tickets , and the aunty was random! ._. she randomly look at enbei and say " if she bring her boyfriend here too it will be more fun " -.-  haha. went in , the person gave us a chop. but its invincible! only can be seen under UV light . we thought they cheat us lor. took pictures . blablaa . went to different sections ^^ not much thing there uhh. halfway , decided to go for lunch . so settled lunch @ macdonalds (:  me & enbei ordered upsize meal , while nad got regular one . heh heh , clever me & enbei ^^  we took our revenge daring nad to eat all the left ones . but she didnt :@ no fair . 

Went back to science centre , went to play games til leg sour ! hahaha . hands also :x  but fun lahhh ^^ then explored til 3plus 4  , walked to je library . nad borrowed books then trained back to jp . arcade for neoprints ^^  realised its 6plus alr , so separated w nad as she walk home . while me & enbei waited for 192 , ite so many pple . decided to take 193 instead ! reached home at around 6plus to 7 :D 

Im sleeping early today if i could , to wake up slightly earlier tmrw :)  wont be attending schl yo ! yeay ! but , still tmrw theres a long day to go ~  GPS shootout at replublic poly ^^  hope we do have fun .

annyeong :D