Teachers day celebration today ^^ and also ACES day .
Mood good today ! Went t fetch boyfriend , then lover so kanchiong want meet me! Everyday also miss me so much one ~ cheyyy.  School, ACES workout for the first period.  Wanted t dance, but it seems so embarrassing ._. So kept fooling around w besties && we at there keep touch here and there only! LOL!! Back t class for lessons til recess . Went down to get food & up to get changed. Gathered at hall , practice for awhile and slackslack. 11, backstage t prepare. 1110, teacher's day celebration started. Enthic Fusion was the first . Was freaking nervous , yangkai at there chill me down ~ haha.  Finished, went back t sit with class & watch the performances (:   Everything ended at 1440 .. Went out of schl , saw ryan. Me & lover at there bio him , he look at us we jitao turn away & walk off . hahaz.

Jp with lover ^^ wanted t eat , but ite no! Cause her ex number 1 keep ask her go Jwps.  Bought bubbletea, bused to jwps. Weather so hot only manz ! So many people outside gate waiting to go in -.-  wtf sia. Dont let us go in.  Instead of walking in , kengleong asked us to climb in through the side gate. Laugh die me nia !  Goshhhh feel so different in jwps . everything seems so small . hahah lol ! Pei lover go find her classmates . Took pictures. Oh ya, met mr kong ^^ hehe talktalk awhile . cant meet misschong )):  and i think ms bala forget me ! ._.   Its been so long since i went back lo , after graduate jiu never go back alr. Somemore, 6B'08  no one go back ! LOL sia. Ryan gave me eat a chicken , hungry die me siol . Sat down awhile, alvin at thr so kp only -.-  4plus went pm mac makan my latelunch.  Ryeongkuu's house next ! then home at 6plus.


Sianz,  got someone jealous i text with someone , keep make me laugh nia. LOL !  Now so sian only ! Both of the someone playing ball jiu pangsehhhh me ):   cheyy fake ! Im waiting for another someone to text me ):  i miss him )):   tsk , haha.


suddenly, i felt like everything has returned back to six months ago , where you and you were there .. 

Met up w Miichelle, but she was late today! =X  Teacher alex wont be here for 4weeks,  sadded only ! 

After class , was talking t teacher chandra . was asking him whether what time he comes t church everysunday . then he said " ohhhh , i forgot you stay at the same HOUSE as me " . walauuuu , people thought what sehhh. other teacher heard make me paisey lor. Class2b ended late , so went down first. Then met Russell & Sebastian(:  Went in for mass at around 11 . Sat w Russell that dog -.- he's sucha bastard please! Keep bio bio bio only. ite was pissed by him , went off .

When the last teardrop falls , I will stand tall and hold onto the memories of how you used to be . (: 

Me & Lover's unmatch ring ! ^^  iluvherttmla^^

" lastly , lover this is for you la ! iloveyou . LOL . "

Yalayala, but you love your MOMO more ! 

According t lover , this is my miscarriage ! LOL!

Yesterday,

Me : taking eugene's waterbottle* " eh , i want drink lehh " thinking*

eugene : " want drink jiu faster drink , dont wishy washy (sp) "

lover : " wishy washy not washing machine mehh ?! "

i laugh until roll on the floor !

(Copied from lover's blog)

Lover's blog almost every post got my name lor !! Haha, yesterday kept calling lover lanjiaolijun =p  who ask her keep call me asshole ! LOL !  Im lazy to post . -.-   

you aint the person i used to know. & i regretted badly what i did 7months ago . for getting your number & knowing you . why was i so stupid then -.-   i know everything was fate.  If i knew all this would happened, i wouldnt have did that & now we're strangers.  STRANGERS totally.  all this happened, and spoiled our friendship.  No one could control all these things, including me. maybe thats called FATE that i had t meet you ..  

A smile happens in a flash, but its memory can last a lifetime.

hi ! the cutest lijun is here helping the asshole to update her blog :$ please dont say im kind , helpful & cute . i will haolian one . cheyy ~ fake ! just kidding . im not that BHB like VERONICA SEOW LOO SZE  lo ! lmao :D idk what to help this asshole to post la , i so good lo . auto help her update her blog , :$ GOOD ME ! be proud that i help you update ok ! people want also dont have one ok ! hhehhehe !  i think im v.cute because that asshole is right beside me only and yet i helping her update , shyness ! :$ enough of crap , byebye . dont miss my post ok !! which i know that asshole cfm will miss one :$ hehe ! :D




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School today, wasnt really feeling well .. Project work , went library w missmok & fauzan to show our mtv . Alot wrong -.-  & now i had to redo the whole mtv for the final draft. wtf is this. LOL! Music, mr sim showed us singapore true ghost story video . & the class kept screaming . including me ._.  Mothertongue, misslim was fuck up with our class and she threw her book on the floor. Ji scary yi xia you mei you !  Readingperiod & Ft period did nothing much .. After schl , break ! Had lunch with lover & enbei ^^   Then was English CA , situational writing. Anyhow write o.o  & i wrote twice . cause wanna waste time.  Paper ended at 3plus , lover came my class.  & off we went to jurongpoint (:  Went to look for mummy, then pei her go toilet weewee =P laugh!  Bought sweets cause its so cheap ! Treat lover ^^  Bought bubbletea, went back t mummy's shop took ezlink from her and trained home. Lover came my house !  She kept screaming lo ! Ask me carry rabbit cause she scared. & she went up my chair and sofa. haiyo ! Scream until whole building want collapse le lahhhh . Let her use my lappy , & went t bathe (:  6plus, walked home w lover & bused t jp to pass mummy her ezlink . Home @ 7plus .

Im fucking trying to rush pw -.-   im sure i cant finish it by today . when im so tired after a day . and i have to study for tomorrow's mothertongue ca & maths retest ))):  stressed!! T.T  I dont wanna go school  tml . and i hope i can & mummy lets ..

I hate people who didnt reply my messages & pangsehhh me . then told me they fell asleep .. LOVER's one of them !!! =P  I cant blame her . as she is so pig ! hahahaha, her pig level so high ! too bad cant control falling asleep .


i guess lets pretend we dont know each other in school .. 

I miss him ):

Church w parents, went to meet Michelle at staircase. & saw him . Tried t talk t him, and wtf he ignored me

-.- Class today was bored , but funny actually.  Michelle told me something, and we laugh out loud ! Teacher thought we was laughing at him ._.  Jp next for breakfast , met daddy & went popular got our things. Then he went home with mummy first, while i pei michelle wait for her parents(: Joined Ryeongkuu & her classmates at

frontier , then jp again . Sat at kfc, Russell walked past. Told him , then he go walk past again -.- 

( To him :  Gratz to you, you're attacthed (:   lastlong!  I fucking blamed myself for doing that to you , i regretted. i shouldnt have initiated it. but, you've found someone. its okay.. ) 

Its a matter of time ..

HELLOS ^^   Here to update , because someone miss my post . LOL!

Basically, many things happened this whole week. I dont know where to start from.
Hmm , now i hate school like seriously -.- motherfucker !
I dont wanna go schl , everytime i go , my mood gets sucky .

Yesterday,
Hearts2hearts talk with nadhirahy ^^  and we understand each other's feelings (:
Enbei was disappointed w me recently , becuase of something .. Im sorry , but i didnt knew what was happening t me. I've changed. I do the things i dont wanna do it ): I tried controlling myself, but still i cant & continue doing it. I know , i promised you that i will let go of it. But i didnt in the end.

After schl , went home straight away . Prepared & meet ryeongkuu or lunchy ^^  Trained to jp & met Weien. Walk around, Vivian joined us awhile later (:   Vivian is polluted by our horny-ness =p !  Went HARRIS, weien showed us a book , the peektures inside were OHMYGAWD! LAUGHMYASSOFF lo!  Went swing afterwards w them , then me & ryeongkuu went home first. Cause i kept on disturbing them i wanna go home and sleep. hehehekz. iluvthemformakingmelaugh (:

I know that I should probably just let go, because I know that it wont work out and everyone tells me that.

So I try to convince myself that its better off that way without you...  But then I'll think of you and remember your smile that makes me melt and I cant imagine myself with anyone else and no matter how hard it will be…

I want to be with you .. ):




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Enbei came over , & we finished our MTV in 3hours40minutes time ^^  YEAY CHEERS ! :D  Hope nothing goes wrong on monday. Like finally, we finished. But its only draft two -.- Still have FINAL draft , and i have to do it. whatthefuck only. LOL.  Okay, just now went t fetch enbei since its her first time coming. Bought bubbletea ^^ Chiong our mtv , my stupid nooby laptop kept hanging suddenly ! and i restart for like 5 times ! EpicFail ahhhh LOLZ :)  Plus we kept replaying to listen to the song lyrics. Almost fell asleep -.-  But ite we managed t finish it . Thanks alot enbei for guiding me ((:  Or can say , helped me. When im supposed t do it alone. haha.  Enbei went home at 5 .  Now gonna help falysha with her PSP songs & games . Downloading so many songs !  Somemore got malay songs, i dont even know =P  Tired manzxc. ):   But imma good friend (:  LOL. 




Buaibuai :D    CatheismClass tml !! I hope .. i can still talk to you as a friend (:  imy ): 

Stop giving me false hopes ;

HELLOHIHEY ^^   

This morning met lesby at jurongpoint, had our breakfast && chitchat session (: Slacked around, went arcade. Took neoprints ^^ Hahah laugh my ass off lo ! Me & lesby anyhow chose, then random random one. Then played games (: Around 11plus, went to meet lesby's mum, had deserts at kopitiam. I was like keesiao one lor, kept laughing non-stop for like nothing -.- Kept joking lor. 

12 went out, bused t artpark there wait for lover. Waited for her for like 1hour15minutes lohhhh !! And she told me she still happily eating when she know im waiting for her. But its okay, its my honour to wait for her :P   Walked to jp with her,  arcade to take neoprints ^^ Okayy, LAUGHOURASSESOFF please -.- !!  Our picts all unglam one lo :x  Finished, went to buy sweets && bubbletea  , then headed to frontier. Felicia came, we went in find place sit down. Then lover's boy classmates came. They did their project. Went to find ryeongkuuu, ((:  Kind of her to lend me her itouch to run run run :P LOL!  Jp next when lover's done w her project, arcade to look for her boyfriend. hahah. Starfactory too . and i was hoping i could meet him there )):  imisshim!  Had dinner at ryeongkuu's house, her mum cooked (; Home @ 8 :) 

I saw you with her today. And  I watched with my fake smile,I could hear my heart break and I could feel it being torn apart.  Mother fucker -.- 




Ps if i never reply any of your messages .. Offing my phone at times, mostly at night. Dont wanna wait for messages that i want to see -.-  sorry . 

Letting go is not my strengths, i have to learn .

Today slept til noon , woke up. Prepared and went to meet Ryeongkuu at jp. (:  Had lunch at toriQ , then headed to frontier.  Saw many boonlayians, going library machiam going schl liddat -.- Lover came, pei her go buy bubbletea ^^  Sorry ryeongkuu , pangsehhh you. hehe!  Back to jp, shopped awhile & home. As i only told mummy im going for lunch only.  But went to ryeongkuu's house, then swing (:  Home as sister says shes giving me tuition. ite, she havent come home yet! Read my book, and i finished reading! Shes still not home yet -.-

Theres class tomorrow, but im skipping it with michelle. Due to some reasons, & she doesnt wants to do her presentation. Mwhahahah ~   Meeting lover tmrw, pei her go do her project ^^  Sianmax! Im missing her right now ): hahah. Lover sure miss me MORE de :P






Someday, im going to look back and realize that this time in my life was just a part of more enduring story(:  and eventually laugh at my own stubborness.  Im not going to stay like this anymore, waiting for the day to come. Lifes have arcs, just like in every good story. There are many events that occur in our lifes, good and bad, to help to build up that arc. But the most important of all is that we learn from those events (:  They are beautiful memory, and now you're my memory ^^  

Its friday 13 today! LOL .

Today mood was fucking sucky.  Morning fetched enbei, then meet lover at gate (:   English lesson, but miss mok didnt came. Relief teacher , let us listen t mp3. shiok lor!  seriously, i hate science lessons ): its so freaking boring to the maximum!  Didnt bring pe today, so no pe ^^  After schl meet lover, sat at canteen try her macoroni ^^  no training for me today, got to make up on monday ): coach wants to give me things to do. SIANLAH!  Slacked til 4plus. went seveneleven, bought cookies. Then lover want t find terry at resident corner. We went study corner, cause we thought its the same. ite, wrong! haha. Waited for him at resident corner,  terry came. but me & lover was like counting down one minute t 4.50, we rush off to meet lover's mum(:      Reached home @ 5plus.


Lastly, im TANLIJUN's <33 hahah.

Hellos people (:   Mwhahah secretly took out lappy since no ones home .

Late day today. But went late (:  Met lover at her voiddeck, & schl together with her! Went t her class to join andy, talktalk awhile jiu go for morning assembly. today sat behind w lover ^^  First period was English. As usual, worksheets -.-  recess with lover. She went down canteen, got motive one nehh! Want to bio ahemahem wor! :P hur lover ?!   Hmm scienc today, was bored to the extreme ?!  Had a short test on radiation. & did a practical which me enbei and nihui failed. After schl, seveneleven with lover. Then went for petrocket ^^  Did parachute today! Gosh its cool , but definetly not fun when it comes to launching ):  Got dirty with the mud ):  LOL! Hmm, me & enbei's timing was WOW.  first try, was good. 7.8seconds. Then, followed not good ler. tsk ah! longest one was 17seconds, epic fail ! laughh .  Everything ended at 5, walked home with enbei with our rockets. On our way home, we realised something really fucking stupid. & we kept on laughing like siaokias LOL.  I promised enbei, tmrw i will go fetch her to help her take the rocket. ((:


&&, btw yesterday & today lover kept on MOMO-ing ! arghhh. hahahha.



Boy, im sorry that i had to made this decision .. i dont wanna kept on lying and denying about my feelings anymore. i cant bring myself to type those things. i dont wanna hurt you, or use you . im sorry. 

Letting go is one way of saying I love you (:


Overslept this morning ):  Luckily ryeongkuu called me, woke up and rushed everything. She came over to wait for me, then off we went t jp . had our breakfastlunch, and headed for frontier. Found a place & settled down. Didnt had the mood to do my homework ):  so did a lil , and went to search for books. Saw haziqahh :) & Jervois & other primary schlmates.  hahah. Vivian came t join us ^^ Joked around, then finally decided to go jp. Went popular , was watching the MV played . Machiam porn nia -.-  then went to kiddypalace's fitting room and slacked. & vivian was playing w her keys. & it dropped at my AHEMAHEM *  LOL! Home @ 5plus :)


I miss lover too ):   Meeting her tmrw morning ^^  Hehe excited ^^ LAUGH:)




i know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me in my dreams you're mine forever.

Out with Mummy Ryeongkuu & her parents ^^  To IMM!  12plus, ryeongkuu's daddy drove us to imm. Reached there, couldnt find a parking lot ):  The whole carpark was FULL !! So dropped us down first, & we went to walk ard :)  Went in one shop selling those crystal thingy ? then ryeongkuu's mummy went t do the fortune telling. haha. So me & ryeongkuu went t walkwalk.  Met ryeongkuu's daddy , Went to phone shops to look for ryeongkuu's phone :)  then SUBWAY for lunchy ^^  Okeh, i know im getting fatter & fatter day by day! Eating fastfood almost everyday :P  Continue t shop around, Giant t look for our mummys. LOL!  OMG, met lesby w her family in giant yknow ?! how small the world is wor ! Chey ~   Afterwards, went t jalan bahar de dontknow what garden . Wanted t buy one plant & plant it myself :) but ite, never ! :P  car , to wait for them. Hmmph , home @ 4plusplus.  Home and rest while. Meet ryeongkuu again , went to slack :)  Then met her parents & makan @ coffee shop ! Okay , Today's weather made me SWEAT LIKE A DOG -.-  A dog barks, a bark is on the tree, tree is nature, nature is wonderful ~  LAUGH! Russell taught me this -.-  

Sianz my Russell' darlingdidiBAYBEH staying at Marina Bay Sands tonight ! ^^ Gosh, how cool ?! he kept telling me his room was freaking NICE. Making me jealous ): hahaha. He went for swimming, hope he doesnt drowns lah :P cause his height .. :P OOPS.  Haha i luv my darlingdidi ttm lah <3  0808101620<3

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I LOVE MY DEAREST LOVER ' LIJUN ^^ <3

to my dearest veronica`lover !

i know , its my 2nd time dedicating post to you . you better be touch and cry like nobody's business ok ! cheyy ~ fake (: hey , lover . you know i love you alot anot ?! cheyy ~ :$ ok , i read your blog . dont get upset over him already . if he dont want you , nvm .. cause lijun wants you (: if its yours , its yours . if you two were meant to be tgt , trust me , he will come back to you . if you wanted to let go already , remember this . lijun is here with you , you arent alone (: noone says its gonna be easy , but nobody says its impossible . like what ahhock says : " release yourself from this unwanted memories . " now , your holding on alone , it really make no difference . ite , you will be tired . your friends are with you . sky aint falling , earth continue rotating & time dont stop for anyone . without him , life still goes on . without him , you will still survive because you have us by your side . if you need me , text me . i will be 24/7 there for you . trust yourself , you will succeed no matter how difficult it is . take it as a break from relationship , there is still so many better guys out there . lijun can be your sub also ! :$ smile girl , since i could already let go , you can do it too . andand , lijun love you ok ! :D

Gosh! Seriously, im so touched like nobody's business can!  Immediately after i read lover's dedication to me, tears flowed down )':  Lover, thanks for your dedication! Thanks for everything you said, & told me. And of course for everything you did for me :$  YEAH! If its mine, its mine :)  Nothing's impossible , letting go takes time, and its hard. but i know i have a bunch of great friends standing by me , here with me to go through thick & thin together ^^  Without the guys, we will still continue living our lives to the fullest.  We shall prove them wrong for leaving us !  Im glad that you smiled ^^  & continue smiling okayz :) Veronica's here for LIJUN toooo <3  ILOVEYOUTOTHEMAXIMUM <3 ^^ 

i luv him ♥

Hellos. Woke up early for catheism today(: Combine class , and did presentation. Vanessa ask me write my reflection, blind totally blank! LOL! Russell help me write I've learn nothing-.- Kept tell Vanessa idw present today, lesby wei le help me jiu keep shoot her. Thanks<3  But ite, still gotta present -.-  So read the slides, pretty good lah .But, didnt read the reflection :P Russell go sabo me -.- but luckily delphine didnt heard lo. Whole class sat behind with the guys. & i did a SURVEY :P   seriously, cannot tahan the guys sia. kept burst out laughing. Especially jervois sebastian & russell all hornybastards ! -.-

Jurongpoint next with lesby for breakfast. Had subway footlong ^^ omg yummy! LOL:) Shopped around , home @ 12plus. Just in time to send daddy off :)  thanks daddy for what you did for me ! Appreciated it <3


SianMAX!  Russell have his hockey training. Cannot pei wo text ):  


080810'1620♥  






Why am i waiting for someone when he doesnt even care. & claims that he still care.  It just seems like its all one sided love. ): Waiting for something which will not happen, thinking miracles will happen, its kinda stubborn & silly. I gotta let go, and stop wasting my time to wait for him.  but i just dont know how to .. ): 

NationalDay celebration yesterday :)   Met Sandra and co. @ 6 . Went in schl tgt(:   Helped out for charitybazaar, so did not went hall for the performances. but went up t watch the malaydance & chinesedance . charitybazaar started, helped out at the food stall . our games stall like so pathetic only -.- After everything ended,  pei lover at her class (:  then andy sat down w us help her think of a solution. And, i accidentally dropped his mp3. ooops. :P  Jp to meet mummy for lunch. Ryeongkuu & Vivian joined us.  Home @ 3plus. 

Probably, i've decided.  tsk ..

2more days, and its NATIONALDAY -.-  which is.. 

gottogo!  Mama godma& cousins here :)  

lastly , lover SMILE because it happened :)   if its meant to be, its meant to be (: 

Hoho at ryeongkuu's house updating.  im so fucking tired T.T
Today, school was FUCKING tired -.-

school early to meet lover , pei her do her hmwk . then lessons as usual ~  after schl , selfstudy comp lab for MTV . then pet rocket.  Yeay LAUNCHY ^^ iluviluv LOL :)  But todays total failure ):  hur enbei?!  kk., 4 went to help out for charity bazaar.  besties went home first. then stayed longer with sandra and co. we were the last to leave the schl lor! Tomorrow meeting them @ jp @ 530 !  Ohya, and thanks yaojie alot for helping me carry the drinks up ^^  so touch sia :P   Bused home w peiyu :) 

Meeting peiyu @ pioneer mrt & jp tgt ! hahaha . gotta sleep early & wake up early !! :D 


( seriously . dont you think its obvious what you're doing ? -.-  i dont know for  what reasons you wanna do this. but , tsk .. leaving me out , really . what plans you have. ): )



4 more days :'(

Library w ryeongkuu ystd :)

Cat class w Michelle :)  Pon class due to projectpresentation -.-  Got someone sabo us , but heh., cook up stupid reasons & teacherchandra believed us. i felt so bad ): haha.  Jurongpoint for breakfast, shopped around. Arcade & played. The game scared the hell wits out of me -.- wth. haha.  Met mummy , and home ! ^^

I felt like giving up . whats the point of waiting for you when you wont change your mind -.-  :'(  tsk ..