ily. imy. ):

School.  Had mother tongue storybook test today. Didnt read the book, but i managed to finish all the questions. Science didnt split class today. So sat with Falysha. We talked alot! We're really very sad & heartbroken when we heard anything that was related to love. But we'll stay strong together (:  Selfstudy after schl. && home w my lover lijun! <3

Was doodling with falysha during english lesson.  I drew the broken heart & she coloured it for me.  She was really very upset with him, and she drew the evil & angel thingy out. I failed to cheer her up as her bestfriend ):

Didnt ate for the whole day today >: I felt so terrible much.


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I've real lots of things to say but I dont wanna post up a whole chunk of words here. Cause everthing i said, its not going to change anything. You've hurt me enough. Why would you bother talking so much things when you've already made up your mind. Telling me all those stuffs, & hurting me more. Yes, its time for us to let go.  I'll have to forget you. but its  hard to forget someone. I told myself,  Things have two sides. Good & Bad. I'll think of the brighter side and move on. I really hope that we still could be friends & talk to each other .  I really hope you could still text me. I will always keep the memories we had together no matter good or bad. I wont hate you, but i'll always love you.  But you've changed ..

I felt so silly posting up such things >:

I miss the way you used to hold my hands, I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart.

Suddenly, I felt like crying. Suddenly i felt like laughing. Suddenly i felt like dying. Im confused ); MixFeelings. Can somebody tell me what to do.  I force my smiles out, cause im pretending nothing happen. Tears just flow down, but i didnt realise it .Inside my heart, i felt so broken. I felt so stupid, so stubborn. I know i have to get over it one day. But i wouldnt know when is they day that i'll forget everything. I kept telling myself that i have to be strong, & stay happy always. I swear i did smile & laugh . But after awhile, my heart hurts i dont know why. Reading back the messages, i cant control myself but to ..


I will continue smiling , cause smiling was the only way for you to smile again . I want to see you smile again like how you use to smile to me (: 




Thanks lijun for your messages (:   I love talking to lover ^^  She understands what i feel (:  I told her i felt like crying,& want to lend her shoulders. she said she will lend me her shoulders cause its her honour ! :$ Make me shy only lorzx !! haha. LOL (: