Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

Nothing hurts more than realizing you meant everything to me, but i meant nothing to you >:


Heyyoz (:  okay , im really happy that i've finally got the freedom to use lappy . LOL im lame . okay , exams are finally over today ! had last paper , d&t , which was so f-ing sian ! Walauuuuuu i bei lover influenced dao her vulgars liao lor !  hmm , after paper went to look for lover ^^  then went to her house. slackslack , jiu walk t stadium , central & jp to look for job . Central kfc , had lunched ^^  hahaha i ate alot ! because lover lah ! ABUSE ME ))))))):  make ma starve like theres so tomorrow ! LOL ! hehe . Reached jp , went t look for mummy first .. then back to lover's house .

Awhile later , at around 3 . walked to lover's favourite " BANGLAH " park with her brother & sister ! Fly fly fly kite ~~ hahahah . lover fly dao so cute you mei you ! hehehe . So played for awhile , atfirst we succeeded and the kite fly ~ afterwards, kept trying cant T.T weather sibey hot canz ! tak boleh tahan lor ! So decided to walk to jp value shop bought drinks . hehehe , i shui tong lor . drink one bottle + one can :P  hmm , walked back to the park and continued flying kite . kept running like siaozharboh yige lo lover . played til 5plusplus , decided to go home . so separated with lover & her brother & sister . Trained home ^^

Im effing tired nao T.T  currently downloading auditionsea & talesrunner . i guess its really taking alot of time ):  haaaaaaiz . tomorrow science centre with enbei & nadhirah ^^

Hmmmmphhh , working 3days with enbei during holidays ^^  but its only 3days . trying to find a job with lover , but hard ! LOLOL . anyone intro ?? hehe .

Josef's so sad today )):  Come on chiobuhh karol josef ! I thought youre the one cheering me up , giving me the courage ?!  arent you a cheerful person ?!  Smile & be brave to face it ! Its not the end yet (:  you said you did it for both of your sakes , its best for both of your . you've already made the decision , be brave alright . i believed you can like how you believe in be (:  i'll be here for yah ^^ hahahah .


Okay , im off to ryeongkuu's house to exchanged books with her . hehehehe .


Hey , get it right . i hate you .

Yeah , so im waiting for you to talk to me ..

Hoho hi ^^

Secretly took out my lappy to use since theres no one home . okay , im really lazy to revise for history tomorrow T.T can i not study ? LOL . of course not . but im sure im gonna flunk it even i revised . LOL -.-  hmm , had literature paper on monday , maths paper 1 & geography paper yesterday . and today, science ! Geography sucks like hell manzxc , seriously i left so many pathetic blanks . lol . during paper today , i was resting and so i turned my direction to nadhirah . then she gave me those seducing look . then smilesmile , make me laugh out lor seriously . teacher saw me , then ask me what thing ._. i cannot concentrate during exam with her smiles distracting me la . LOL !! hehe .

i cant wait for exams to be over la !  then got freedom already . and also i promised enbei i will re-download my audition to pei her play after exams . i made the promise longlong time ago ~~ hehe .

ohhhh, its the 3rdmonth today . ihateyou . zzzzz !  chey fake .

babybehR , smile . you can do it okeh ! stop all those emotional quotes .

ChiobuhhhKarolJosef rocks ^^ cheyyyy ~ 


okay , buai .

you know i miss you .

Yeay ! English & Chinese paper are over ~  had english paper 1 & 2 yesterday , and chinese paper 1 & 2 today . im sure gonna flunk it ? :/  english paper 1 sucks like shit . LOL . i gave up after writing abit only . tskk !! today's chinese paper , somehow still okay . can pass la MAYBE.

hmm after paper , meet lover. supposed to walk home with her , but i pangseh-ed her . because shes walking home with her dad and sister too . so im sorry lover ! bu shi gu yi yao pangseh ni de . ):  so instead , i strolled home alone . just like the feeling of walking home alone .. reached home , prepared and watched doreamon til overtime . when i was just about to leave house , sister asked me to wait for her . so waited , and left house with her & her boyfriend . waited for the train , thought was going to be late to meet enbei . ite , she was later than me ! subway for lunch , then trained to je. went to buy snacks & library (:  library was packed ! but managed to find a place to sit down .  wanted to study history , but enbei lah ! keep distract me . cheyyy ~  waited for her to finish reading her comics then home at 5plusplus . train back , then enbei was rushing home . she wanna break my timing from my house walk t her house. i bet she cant ! lol . haha . 

heh secretly took out laptop to use . since no one's home . sianz , gonna be bored to death this weekend . 

should i or should i not ..?  i hate this . 

I don't know why we all hang on to something we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we really don't even have. Some of us say we'd rather have something than nothing at all, but the truth is to have something halfway is harder than not having it at all.

Its mummy's birthday today , hah shes old already :x  and she actually forgotten that its her birthday . Lucky me and sister reminded her (: LOL.  

school was fine today . art lesson , i finish painting my crabbies ^^ hehe . shall paint the background nextweek ! though theres no extra marks added . hmm , mother tongue lesson .. slacked in toilet for almost one period . THEN ! sandra asked me to help her take tissue paper . so kind me , helped her ran back to toilet to get . then she shouted my name so frigging loud asking me faster -.-  and falysha from 2/8 classroom can hear , whatthehellz man . haha . after school , ate lunch with enbei at school canteen . maths remedial was cancelled as mrlim finish going through our paper. we watched doreamon while eating ^^ seveneleven to look for falysha and nadhirah afterwards while enbei went home first . back to school library , slacked and talked . we talked alot ! really alot ! our feelings .  anyway , i really envious of nadhirah . haha . how i wish i could be like her ! lol. home at 340 . 

bathed , prepared and then went jp with sister . to get mummy's present :)  shopped around , early dinner at ljs . home alone ~ as sister went for her tuition . 

5days and counting ~  veron , you can do it ! LOL hehe .